Dr. D rolled in to greet me before my surgery with one leg atop a scooter. Strange. I’d only ever seen that type of getup used twice before, both on men my age who suffered from diabetes, but Dr. D seemed pretty young and athletic to be in danger of losing a limb.
“Are you okay?” I asked a bit groggily, as I was just about to go under from the anesthesia.
“Ya, just a biking accident.” He wasn’t exactly curt, but he wasn’t his usual cheerful self, either. I remember wondering if I’d done something wrong (invariably my initial reaction to anyone seeming out of sorts), but it was a fleeting thought, and then I fell asleep.
Today has been three months to the day since my hip replacement surgery. I’m not completely recovered yet, but enough so that—by God’s grace—it seems I will. I hadn’t given another thought to my vision of Dr. D rolling in on a scooter until I saw him again at my check-out checkup walking virtually normally.
“It looks like your leg has recovered! Did you say you’d hurt it in a biking accident?” I was picturing him falling off his bicycle around town.
“You didn’t hear that story?”
I shook my head.
“I was on a 1,200-mile cross-country motorcycle trip taking the back roads from California east when I lost a tangle with a motorist who apparently didn’t notice me.”
“Wow! You’re lucky you survived!”
“Ya. Got scrapped up pretty bad but only broke my ankle.”
I studied him intently. “I don’t remember you having a cast on the day you operated.”
“No, I had too many surgeries scheduled, so I operated on you before they operated on my ankle.”
I grimaced, remembering back to my only experience of breaking a bone. About thirty years ago I broke my wrist while bicyling with Alan along Huron River Drive in Ann Arbor. It was late October and the trees were showering the road with leaves. As the sun began to set, an unexpected rain made the road gleam. It was beautiful but cold, and as we sped up to reach shelter, I slipped on a big patch of decomposing leaves. We still had five miles to go, so I rode it out until we reached Dexter Bakery and Alan was able to load up our bikes. I can remember the pain of unset bone on bone and the relief I felt after my wrist was stabilized in a cast. I tried to imagine performing surgery with a broken ankle. Not a pretty picture.
I don’t know Dr D well enough to explain his unusual heroism. Surgical training is unbelievably grueling, and dedicated surgeons learn to put the life-and-death needs of others above their own somewhat less than life-and-death needs so often that one friend (who is a surgeon) says surgeons don’t deserve to have spouses (because they’re so neglected).
Just a question, but how are you doing? People (especially men) can get so consumed by their work that they delay caring for their own needs. Caregivers (especially women) can become so focused on providing for their loved ones that they live with pain rather than get the care they need. Are you spending your life toughing it out for the sake of others? Maybe today is a good day to stop and assess your situation. Do you need to schedule a surgery? How’s your heart? Need to schedule an appointment with the Great Physician of our souls?
“For the wound of the daughter of my people is my heart wounded; I mourn, and dismay has taken hold on me. Is there no balm in Gilead? Is there no physician there? Why then has the health of the daughter of my people not been restored?” (Jeremiah 8:21-22).
“When Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick” (Matthew 9:11).
“Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing; heal me, O Lord, for my bones are troubled” (Psalm 6:2).